othersdie: are you exiled in those bottomless nights? (Shock (or very nearly))
Justin Pendleton ([personal profile] othersdie) wrote2011-12-29 07:53 pm

[Action/Video]

[Justin, unaffected by the cold induced by sitting near the fountain that the City had seen fit to drop him into during winter, finally tires of waiting for what he’s convinced what must be a trick of the mind to dissipate and resolve itself into the nothingness of death. For a lack of any other distractions, he fumbles with the device he had found in his pocket earlier.

He doesn’t fully understand why he would bother hallucinating what resembles a camcorder. The brain is truly a strange and unfathomable thing.]


Am I dead yet?

[It’s a ridiculous question. He still exists enough to imagine things; the answer is clearly no.]

If not--if not, I hope this doesn't last long.

[identity profile] othersdie.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
People are greedy... keeping what's not theirs. Forcing others to stay alive for their own reasons.

[The last gets a humorless smile.]

I hate myself most of all. Killing myself would have been an act of free will, a perversion of the justice system, and a final assertion of power... no intimacy, no love. Just ideologies.
dignity_misery: (it's hollow and it's cold)

[personal profile] dignity_misery 2011-12-30 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[Power and greed. It makes her heart flutter. Her voice is both cruel and affectionate when she wonders,]

Do you feel trapped, little rabbit?

[identity profile] othersdie.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Justin is usually slow to admit personal truths, preferring philosophical possibilities to flat honesty. He isn't sure why he's compelled to make an exception for Carla. It must be her similarities to Richard. No one else was ever so good at combining kindness and cruelty.]

Yes.

Do you?
dignity_misery: (Default)

[personal profile] dignity_misery 2011-12-30 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Always.

[Trapped inside her own corpse. An animal intent to chew off its own leg, just to escape.]

And it won't be over soon.

[A very sweet reminder. Every moment was a century.]
dignity_misery: (got your chin held high)

[personal profile] dignity_misery 2011-12-30 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course.

[Barbet wasn't here. The shreds of her life that she had gathered back up were not here. She has no work, she has no focus, no control.]

But here I am.

[What that would mean in the long run, she didn't know.]

[identity profile] othersdie.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
In a deathless existence where no one can control when or if they die.

[That's depressing.]

Great.
dignity_misery: (does anything matter to you)

[personal profile] dignity_misery 2011-12-30 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Her smile is sharp.]

What are you going to do?

[identity profile] othersdie.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Exist. The specifics can wait.
dignity_misery: (is just a charade)

[personal profile] dignity_misery 2011-12-30 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Let me know if you want company.

[Carla did.]

[identity profile] othersdie.livejournal.com 2011-12-31 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
Okay.

[He doesn't, but saying so would be rude.]