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[othersdie]

Thank you for the warm reception.  However poorly I articulated it, I appreciated the offers of assistance.

I have a question, but I'm not sure if there's an answer.  Regardless: what's the purpose of the graveyard?  The carousel, the ticking, the deities--all of that makes sense (or as much sense as anything else), but why is there a place to bury people if no one stays dead here?  Is it just a prop?  It feels significant, although feelings can't be relied on.

This is a strange place--strange in its own way, stranger when I think about it.  I'd call it all a dream if I wasn't convinced that I'm awake.  Every time I think I'm close to making sense of something, it slips away.

That's not important.  Thank you, again, for being so welcoming.


[Filtered to Neil and Todd // Hackable]

I've read all of the guides (most of them appear to be outdated) and as much as I could find about filters.  It's unnecessary to use one, I suppose, since I can just talk to you, but some things are more comfortably put in writing.

First and most importantly, thank you.  I don't fully understand why you trust me enough to let me into your apartment when you know about what I've done and you realize that I'm not the same person you knew.  Whether I should blame kindness or poor judgment, thank you. 

Second--and I don't know if I should tell either of you this, but something wholly inexplicable tells me that I can trust you--I've been having odd experiences.  Do you know what it's like to try to remember a dream you've just woken up from?  It's like that, and sometimes I think I'm on the verge of something... and then it gets away.  Is this a normal phenomenon here?

Third, I'd like to repeat what I typed first.  I haven't done anything to earn trust, kindness, or friendship--not that I remember.  I hope that you're both usually more cautious.

Comments

[shall-yield-us.livejournal.com]

...why, it's a muse for our artists, of course.

[deadly_legacy]

I'm not certain. [She pauses to consider it when she hasn't before. Two years here and her only thought at a graveyard is of those at home. Maybe that is the point. A memorial of all.] Aren't they usually for the living?

[had_not_lived]

[Of all the uncomfortable questions.]

I don't think there are any bodies buried there-- sometimes things have happened around the graveyard-- curses, things like that I mean-- but I'm really not sure. I... try not to think about it, to tell you the truth.

[Filtered]

Maybe you're starting to remember- I don't think I've experienced that, really, but it's hard to say anything's unusual in the City. I don't think it's anything to be worried about.

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

That seems plausible. Most of the inspiration death offers is lost when it doesn't take, though.

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

I suppose so. They help us remember...

But who are we supposed to be remembering here?

[deadly_legacy]

Those who aren't here with us? Those who wouldn't be even if we were returned?

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

[Making people uncomfortable: it's how Justin rolls.]

Those curses must have been bad.


[Filtered]

You don't think it's a curse? A precursor to insanity? That's good. I wish I understood the graveyard, though.

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

Those people would be worth remembering.

[deadly_legacy]

I think so too. Maybe it is a sort of memorial then. Or maybe the City has another purpose for it. I only know how I think of it.

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

Ultimately, only what you think about the things around you matters.

[deadly_legacy]

How do you think of it?

[shall-yield-us.livejournal.com]

Then you'd best wash the world with enough corpses to maintain artistic interest.

[had_not_lived]

They were. A lot of curses are.

[Filtered]

I haven't heard anyone else saying the same, so not a curse. What is it that's made you feel that way? Like remembering a dream, I mean.

[beifongbandit]

You're kind of obsessed with death, aren't you?

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

I'd rather not.

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure. Maybe as a taunt--a reminder that death isn't an escape here.

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

[Filtered]

It's hard to articulate because it's all impressions and feelings--nothing concrete, nothing I can pin down or look into. The graveyard, for example... I was in the garden and I found my way there, and I felt for a moment that I knew there was a graveyard. It was a nice place--quiet--but something about it made me uneasy. It's like there's information just out of reach, and I know it's there, but I can't access it... as if it's a dream I had the night before.

Does that make sense?

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

A little, maybe. Everyone has to have an interest.

[had_not_lived]

[Filtered]

Do you think you might be remembering things, from when you were here before?

[othersdie.livejournal.com]

[Filtered]

I wouldn't know. I could--subconsciously--be trying to cope with the sudden appearance of an unfamiliar world by projecting feelings of familiarity onto it.

[had_not_lived]

[Filtered]

That sounds... possible.

I wouldn't worry too much about it. Neither the graveyard nor the feelings, unless they get worse.

[charring]

I wish I knew what the graveyard was for. It's the weirdest thing to have here. Aside from the ridiculous curses.

[mumbled_truth]

[Filtered]

Nothing like that's happened to me, but... maybe it is something coming back to you, or trying to, even if it's just vague?

And yeah. We're usually careful, but... just because you're not the "you" we knew doesn't mean you're not you.

[bedsidemanners.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's only a reminder.

[deadly_legacy]

That isn't a very comforting thought.